me turned off by yous.

Some people just turns me off.
They speak this set of words and act sane.
And the next moment, they do another course of action and make shame.

I'm not such a privileged one in the cellgroup.
When I had a major fight with E, everyone stood by her. I practically had no one.
They went out with her, they spent time with her and all their attention was on her.
Call it a cellgroup hur.. Ever since the multiplication, it was never a cellgroup to me anymore.
E had all the support and stuffs. But I was left alone to fight for myself.
I've long accepted the fact that they will always be contained within their own clique and fend for their own people.
At least, that's what their actions had instilled into me.

Don't say I didn't take the effort to build a relationship with them.
BECAUSE I TRIED.
But they were the ones stuck in their own comfort zones.
If you say I should try to step out of my comfort zone, why not tell them they should step out of their comfort zone.
Why must I always be the one trying.. I'm not a super girl. Tireness is a word found in my dictionary as well.
It take two hands to clap.

But till this day,
I've learnt to live on the 3Ds.
Just don't get too cooped up by it and live my own life.

I'm proud that I've came this far.
Thank you darling, you're one of the most crucial factor(: