Hello world, my life's in a quite a mess and I need to clear it up soon. I can't stand the pretense and the concretion of ill-senses in the relationships in my life anymore. I love everybody but I don't know how to love everybody. My attitude is horrid at times and I poke people when they come near me. On certain days, I succeed in maintaining a facade of joy. On other days, I fail and feel bitter. Especially to the peeeeple in e500, I know you feel like grabbing me by my neck at times. But I always feel so distant and far from you allll, that I feel so frustrated about it. Its like, I love you yet I am so far away. After my A'levels, I am secretly praying that I can befriend you all with all of my heart and maybe we can fellowship all day. You'll then see who I really am. I ought to be shot, siqi oughts to be shot. Please be happy, dear myself. Don't disappoint people who love you. & If you don't do well for A'levels, you might as well throw yourself against the wall/a moving car. Because life is as simple as it is- No paper qualifications, no life, no money, no talk.

On top of everything, I'm still thankful for my family and Ezra. Hearts.
This is a really random post.