when all the rejections came in,
i felt so dejected.
for the first time, i felt so wearied,
so tired of everything.

i sat there and thought to myself,
i can't go on like this anymore.
i'll break down.
then, someone spoke to me.

"Don't be so burdened by all those rejections. It's their loss in not accepting your invitations. You've done what you could. You've tried to reach out to them, the rest depends on their own decisions. Well done, My child."

It was Him.
the presence was so strong.
just what i needed(:

anyway, went out with clara. it has been loooong since i last had those hearty chats with her.
i felt so loved by her. she could sense that i'm not happy with them. and since she confronted me, i told her everything. i'm not a substitute, dont take me for granted. i don't need you. even clara felt this way for me.
clara: even i feel the pain for you. please, don't force yourself to click with them. you have us rmb? don't be too soft-hearted just because you think you're obliged to be her friend.
i nearly teared.

i gotta learn to let go i guess(: