cause you had a BAD DAY.
today is such a depressing day.

i seriously screwed my amaths paper up today. studying so hard into the night didn't work. i should had known how to do since i managed to complete my TYS and i had a pretty good practice at the questions in it. but i have no idea what happened to me during the CA. my mind wasn't working. it was blank. really blank. all i wanted to do was to just plop my head down on the table and cry. i know crying doesn't helps. i prayed but it didn't seem to work as well. aiyerr. it matters no more now. the paper is over. now, i gotta buckle up for FYE and do really well. anyway, a BIG thank you to people who didn't stop encouraging me throughout the night. Edmond, i didn't know you were such a good encourager. THANK YOU!(:

got back chinese paper today. shit me. my marks are definitely downright lousy. i only passed by half a mark. so i didn't bothered to even check the paper and chunked it aside, continued practising my amaths. since checking it wouldn' t give me 10 more marks right. anyway, chinese had been my class's weakest subject. all thanks to the china woman who speaks with such CHIM chinese that always make me nod off during lesson. and she dashed my hope of getting an A1/2 in the upcoming chinese o's because she said the o'level paper is gonna be much more harder than this. i really wonder how the chinese scholars can score so high for that paper. smartiies. because they are from PRC? i tried talking to them but their accent is too strong for us to understand anything. grrrr. nvm.

i had been putting on a fake mask so that no one will actually discover the turmoil inside me.
i can't find the drive to study. arghh. STRESSED ARH!

JESUS I LOVE YOU, I LOVE YOU.
BEAUTIFUL SOUL(: