i pondered over what to do now that everything's so screwed.
then, i thought of Her.

well, i should really learn how to cherish and cling on to certain things in my life.
but my stubborness and wilfulness tend to ruin it all.
what do my friends mean to me?
they mean alot and i mean it. though i may seem indifferent at times, but i'm not not not!
because i don't want to have any regrets like what i did before.

i lost a good friend before. that period was the worst i ever had. i have no idea how many gallons of tears i cried. i never knew life was so fragile until then. bitterness that can never be expressed through mere words. i never want to have a taste of that again. NEVER. it's too awful.
at that point in time, i felt so unfair for Her. She was only 12. no. She didnt even had a chance to live till Her twelfth birthday. why must all these happen to my friend? She used to have such great ambitions. can't She have more time? so many whys flooded my mind. but nonetheless, i know She was strong. She struggled till the last minute, till Her last breath. She fought hard. and She will be loved and fondly remembered by all of us.

anyway, we were feasting in class today. but my nose was running like a tap. brrr. caught a cold. and i'm on the verge of losing my voice.
okay bye. i'm off jogging. i don't wanna be so sickly!(:
ALL HAIL ME.