I hate the lack of motivation and enthusiasm.
I miss my sec 4 days, where waking up each morning and going to school didn't seemed like a dread. Each day, my heart keeps up with its beats joyfully.
Cause I know the day would always pass just fine with the gays around me.

These days, I need to cramp my face muscles to smile. I can't possibly put on a gloomy face with my new friends around.
And the fear of the promos hold me in its clutches every passing day in school.
I only know, I NEED TO GET PROMOTED TO J2.

What each new day brings about, I don't know.
Everyday, I just wanna go to school, learn&absorb as much as possible and go back to my comfy home, where I find my rest, peace and security.
Home became my favourite place since then(:

I miss my best friend, mum&dad, my sister, the gays and my family.